Being crazy
For as long as I can remember.
In my adult life.
Ive always had crazy unwanted thoughts enter my head.
All day.
Every day.
I thought I had a bit of physcopath in my DNA.
I saw something on the news the other day.
A woman talking about ADHD.
I looked into this.
I had some of it but not all of it.
I kept digging.
Then I came across this blog.
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
OCD is what I have.
Reading Marks blog.
I’m like.
Yep thats me.
Yep thats me.
Yep thats me.
Not just similar.
99%.
I feel a massive cloud has lifted.
Just by knowing.
What it is.
Calling of the void.
https://www.healthline.com/health/call-of-the-void
And I’m not crazy.
Now I know.
“Obsessions are unwelcome thoughts, images, urges, worries or doubts that repeatedly appear in your mind. They can make you feel very anxious (although some people describe it as ‘mental discomfort’ rather than anxiety).”
This is what I thought OCD was.
“Lots of people have misconceptions about OCD. Some people think it just means you wash your hands a lot or you like things to be tidy. They might even make jokes about it, or describe themselves as a ‘little bit OCD’.”
I think that is also what 90% of people think it is.
This is what it is.
To me at least.
“I get unwanted thoughts all through the day, which is very distressing and affects my ability to interact with others and concentrate on my studies.”
Time to learn how to manage it.
The best I can.
Without drugs.
Thanks Mark !
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